February 17, 2013

Don't want to lose myself....

Have you watch "Eat, Pray, Love"?

I did about 2 years ago. It was love at first sight. I watched it in a period of my life when i needed
advice on how to move on. How to cope and deal with certain situations i was going thru.

I watched again the other night. I felt the same way as 2 years ago. It helped me understand that I need
to guide my life in an specific direction. That as I got older I got better. That my life didn't depend any
more on what other people felt or what they wished but rather on what I wanted for it.

I tell people i'm getting a divorce and they are more worried about my next man than asking what happened
with the one i'm losing. Its amazing how Society works.

I feel like Julia Roberts in the movie.  I find myself repeatedly telling folks I don't need a man. Which I might
do in the future since companionship is not a bad thing, but I don't need one. It feels like I need to battle
people and get them to understand that life could be lived without dragging someone alone.

No one ever stops to think that some of us might not want someone else after a love story ends. Maybe we
just need to find our place in life, how do we fit into this world. What are we here to do or who we are here to serve.

I guess what I am trying to say is that for some of us our joy and happiness doesn't rely on an specific someone anymore. The fairy tale ride came along, we enjoy it while it lasted, got off and kept on walking....